Two little letters and yet powerful enough to bring both peace and destruction to our lives.  And not just to us but to everyone around us!   

I woke up this past Sunday with a stabbing pain in the back of my head just like I did last weekend. No, not like a hangover headache. Trust me, I know exactly how they feel and I do NOT miss those mornings at all! Not just because of the physical pains associate with them but also the emotional pains, which were worse for me.  Whenever depression and anxiety took over I couldn’t wait to have a glass of wine to calm the monsters in me. Only to do it all over again! This was more than a bad habit, it had become a prison! But praise God, that mountain has been thrown into the sea of forgetfulness! Oh, how my heart breaks for those with this particular struggle. You see them everyday I’m sure. At work, at church, dining out, they all seem to be so happy, but believe me it’s a prison for them as well.  Most are just going through the motions of life, but there is no real peace deep down in their soul. 

Now back to my headache.  For the past month or so,  I’ve been eating good, walking, and drinking lots of water or seltzer with lemons and lime.  I’ve felt stronger when going up the stairs and doing my daily chores. Even in writing and talking I ‘ve seen the positive effects.  In other words, I made choices to eat well and the results were: I began to get healthy again, I had energy, clarity of thoughts, strength, and optimism for each new day! 

But…vacation time came! Even before I got there, the inner self (old nature) started to yell at me, “Let’s eat!!” You all know how that works. It’s a downward spiral for most of us. For me, it starts with my favorite snack, an apple and peanut butter. Before I know it, I’m at Chick-fil-A eating waffle fries and a vanilla shake, with lots of whipped cream!  

For illustration purposes only. Not meant to advertise or entice you! LOL

After two weeks of poisoning myself, I’m waking up with these terrible headaches.  “Sugar Hangovers” I call them.  If only I had exercised self control! If I had made better and smarter choices and eaten things like fruit (minus the peanut butter!) and other low sugar foods, I would not have to start all over again!  It’s like I’m at the bottom of this  mountain of bad eating choices, AGAIN! 

For many of us it’s like we climb up to a certain point. We know it’s good and we feel stronger and healthy in our body, mind, and spirit and then we are so easily willing to forfeit it all.  What the heck?!  Why do we give away our victory over and over again?! Why do we allow all of our hard work and great efforts to be sabotaged?! 

Well, I asked God, as I always do, but today I felt something different. I felt led to get my Bible app and go to the book of Proverbs. Not knowing exactly where to turn to, I selected chapter 23. Honestly, I had no idea what I was about to read. But my friends, this truly is one of the ways that our God speaks and teaches us! 

Oh listen, dear child—become wise; point your life in the right direction. Don’t drink too much wine and get drunk; don’t eat too much food and get fat. Drunks and gluttons will end up on skid row, in a stupor and dressed in rags.”

Proverbs 23:15 – MSG

‭‭I was sitting there and, of course, it was one of those jaw-dropping moments with God. I love when Jesus makes sure that we understand what He is telling us. Now just to be clear, I’m not drinking veno (wine), as my father use to call it, anymore. LOL  That’s another story for another time.

God is so incredible and there is never confusion with Him. He loves us and cares about the things we care about. And just like any good Dad’s advice to his daughter (or son), here is the next Scripture He used to speak to my heart.

‭‭“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye.”Do not be like the horse or like the mule, Which have no understanding, Which must be harnessed with bit and bridle, Else they will not come near you. Many sorrows shall be to the wicked; But he who trusts in the LORD, mercy shall surround him. Be glad in the LORD and rejoice, you righteous; And shout for joy, all you upright in heart!”

Psalms‬ ‭32:9-11‬ ‭NKJV

Another way to understand the obedience spoken of in this Scripture passage is to think about a rich man who is having a party or large event at his house.  He gathers his staff (cooks, event planners, etcs) and lines them up. After he gives them the plans and instructions, he then looks at them with that look, that says, “OK, now please go and work and do exactly what I’ve asked of you to do.”

This is how God speaks to me. He’s wise, gentle, loving, and so caring. He really wants me to succeed and have the victory over the areas in my life that I desire.  But, I must choose to follow His instructions.  

If I (we) obey His instructions, there will be victory!!!  I’ve had many so far, but I need more. So, here I go again. I will begin the climb up this particular mountain in my life. We all have many different mountains that Jesus says we can cast into the sea. In other words, conquer.

‭‭‬‬ “For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.

Mark‬ ‭11:23‬ ‭NKJV

I pray that we ALL have victory this week over at least one of our mountains!

11 thoughts on “If…

  1. llaneiris

    Thank you!🤗

    On Tue, Sep 1, 2020 at 3:13 PM Jackie’s Journaling Journey wrote:

    > > > > > > > Jackie Vilardo posted: ” > > > > > Two little letters and yet powerful enough to bring both peace and > destruction to our lives. And not just to us but to everyone around us! > > > > I woke this past Sunday with a stabbing pain in the back of my head just > like I did ” > > > >

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  2. Maria Presepe

    That was truly amazing and Inspiring! So much to draw on! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and life with us! Love 💘 you ❤ my friend!! 🌺


    1. Maria💕
      Love you right back!! We are all being conformed into His Image and Likeness. Well, if we allow it, right?! Sometimes it’s hard, but so very worth it!

      I cannot wait to look and act just like Him. But… the process is in His Hand💕🌻

      He’s been so good. We can TRUST Him with it all

      Love and hugs , stay with me on this walk!!!!


      1. Hi my sister Peggy. I love you toooo!!
        My heart is so happy and full when I hear my sisters!! I love you guys so much and pray for all of us to have joy, peace, fulfillment in just sitting quietly with God and allowing Him to heal all things in our lives. He is so good and I believe He has always taken very good care of us girls….and Charlie of course!! Look how wonderful our sister in law Brigette is, right?!?!? Love you Peggy, my big sister. 🌻🌻🌻


    1. Hi Donna🌻. God bless you. He is always always walking with us! I hope you stay with me on this journey. 💕. You’ve been such a blessing to me, with sharing your morning devotional. I can’t tell you how many times my heart was encouraged!

      Love you


  3. Marie

    Jackie, thank you for sharing. I got home and read them all!! What an inspiration and reminder of
    God’s love and plan for each one of us. As I read your stories I personally shared some of them over the last few months. I keep saying to Charles, remember I have been asking you about that insect noise? They are cicadas (looked them up to hear what they sounded like and that was exactly the noise I have been asking him about). Remember when we got the bird feeder two months ago inspired by my best friend and her family kindness towards feeding the animals that visit their yards. Thinking how much joy God must feel when we help each other, including feeding his animals. And during this pandemic, the binge eating which for me more was more of a defense mechanism to help me feel I was in control of something, knowing in my heart I have to make better choices in taking care of my body, the temple the Lord has given me. People would say what a coincidence but I call that God’s winks, his validation of his love for all of us as we are more the same than different. What a blessing as you shared your feelings and also God’s whispers. Thank you for sharing, look forward to the next story. Marie

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    1. 🌷Marie!! You are such a joy to be with!! I love your kind heart and bubbly attitude. You remind me of my sisters. Big hearts. Would be there to help whenever you need them. “God’s Winks”. I love that. Absolutely no coincidence. He knew you would read these testimonies. Its certainly a way He Whispers to our hearts that He loves us very much and cares about what we care about.
      Thank you for your kindness and prayers.
      Hugs 🤗


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